Occasionally I run out of garbage bags. My last one will be in the kitchen can and as I clean up one mess or another, I'll toss in my trash. As soon as I open the can, I'll think to myself -- Gotta get trash bags. This one's to capacity, and there are NO more. … Continue reading Perhaps I Should Consider a Muzzle
Marriage
More Big Stuff
I've had a week -- birthday parties, another visit from Mamala, more marriage strife, and a wretched cold. So, I'm eating walnuts, drinking wine, and doing my best to form coherent sentences. My husband is a financial idiot. Oh, he's smart, but I now know that when we were young sprouts existing in a passionate … Continue reading More Big Stuff
Big Thing #2 – This is No Fairytale
I once knew a boy who could make everything okay. He could make me smile when the world felt too heavy. His presence provided a calmness that I couldn't explain. I was afraid that this wonderfulness was not real because it felt so other-worldly. We danced in harmony for a brief spell, and it felt … Continue reading Big Thing #2 – This is No Fairytale
Morning Madness
My boys have been in school for almost a month now, and I gotta tell you, I'm exhausted. I kept Piers in a half day Pre-K program so that he and Wallace, the three-year-old, would be on the same schedule. Honestly, it's just easier on me that way and I can not fathom getting anyone … Continue reading Morning Madness
Big Thing #1
One of my biggest fears is that our friends and family will think I ended this marriage because of little things. Part of why I want to write about this is to help me gain some clarity. I still can't decide how to best move forward. Perhaps once I see the reality in black and … Continue reading Big Thing #1
Pocket of Pain
I feel emotionally hung over after all the writing and pondering I did yesterday, but the drunken haze is starting to lift and like some of my hard-partying college days, I'm ready for another night on the town. Talking about my struggles is hard, but once I start, I feel this relentless urge to keep … Continue reading Pocket of Pain
I Will Get Through This
I am a believer. I believe in what many call God, but I have trouble with narrow definitions of this Higher Power. Mortals make it terribly complex, but I understand because it IS complex. I choose simplicity because I believe that what I feel to be God is greater than I or any other human … Continue reading I Will Get Through This
Tough Topics
I've gone back and forth in my head trying to decide if I should actually dive into this topic on a blog. I'm finally at a point where I feel strongly that I must. It's raw and painful, and there is so much that's in the gray. I've ruminated to the point that I'm not … Continue reading Tough Topics
Grief Happens 