I'm gradually coming down from an emotionally demanding week. I could sugar-coat it. Explain my pain away and remind everyone that I KNOW things could be worse -- THEY ABSOLUTELY COULD BE WORSE. But sometimes I think people like myself spend too much time stuffing away pain, feeling like everyone else's stuff is more worthy … Continue reading Speaking Pain in Hopes of Alleviating Some
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Some Things Can’t Be Fixed, and That’s Okay
I ran across a post on Facebook several days ago that I can't stop thinking about. Tim Lawrence sums up my numerous thoughts and emotions on grieving in this eloquent and thoughtful post. I could blast out THOUSANDS of words on the subject, and I could tell you all the ignorant and thoughtless cliches I … Continue reading Some Things Can’t Be Fixed, and That’s Okay
Robin Williams, You Will Be Missed
I’m in a weird space since learning of the passing of our beloved Robin Williams. I'm not someone who knows the details of the latest movie or television show. I rarely watch TV and though I like a good movie, I wouldn’t consider regular outings to the movie theater one of my favorite pastimes. I’ve … Continue reading Robin Williams, You Will Be Missed
The Ugly
I'm flitting from one thing to the next and can't land on one thing in particular. I've been engulfed, smothered, and consumed by a grief that I didn't know was possible. i picked up the phone Saturday around noon and heard my mom's voice, but it still feels like a dream. "Kitty's dead." I want … Continue reading The Ugly
March Sucks and I’m Sad
I have little to say. I should plan to go on a vacation for the month of March. It's just all-around difficult, and it doesn't help that Gil doesn't understand. Today he told me to get over it and that I should stop feeling sorry for myself. He's probably right, but I don't want to … Continue reading March Sucks and I’m Sad
How Do You Define Success?
Sometimes I struggle with feeling unaccomplished. I don’t like to admit that, so I decided to put it out here on my anonymous blog. These feelings have invaded my psyche since having children, and they’ve made me examine my attitude towards success, more specifically, how I define it. My children are now five and four … Continue reading How Do You Define Success?
Deathbed Regrets
When I started this blog, I intended to focus on grief -- hence the name, Grief Happens. Well, I ended up having more immediate needs, and the blog has become more of a place to vent and express the grievances and frustrations in my day-to-day life as opposed to actively grieving my dad's suicide and … Continue reading Deathbed Regrets
I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
Gil just took the boys to the store to buy a filter for the vacuum cleaner. The last week has been interesting. I'm writing this quickly, so I'll do my best to summarize the main happenings, particularly the situation with Gil. I noticed a difference in him last weekend when he arrived to pick up … Continue reading I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
I'm thirty-seven years old and my crazy mother still screws with my head. Her most recent antics are affecting me in unimaginable ways and I have no idea how to shake her off of me. I need to do something because I'm slipping into the darkest depression I've experienced in years, perhaps ever. I know … Continue reading Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
March is a Beast
So much is running through my head today. In the last month I've been on the verge of a full-blown depression. I'm clawing and fighting to stay above the surface, but it's a lot of work. March is always hard. March 24 is the anniversary of my dad's suicide. Seventeen years ago, my mom and … Continue reading March is a Beast
Grief Happens 