How's that for a title? Let's jump right in, shall we? I'm taking a respite from the meds that make my brain work, not exactly by choice. When I went to pick up my refill, I was informed that I hadn't had an actual appointment in six months and this would have to happen before … Continue reading A Day in the Life of a Scrawny Chick With ADD Who Takes Controlled Substances
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What the Heck is an Impact Statement?
I really know how to open up a can of worms and create all sorts of uncomfortableness for myself. I haven't posted much lately because I've been a trainwreck. I wish I could put it more delicately but I like to shoot straight. Let's just call this what it is. Depression is hard and I've … Continue reading What the Heck is an Impact Statement?
I Flopped the Bread so the Meltdown Continues
I hadn't planned to post again today, but after flopping a loaf of bread in the bread maker, I found myself sobbing in the bathroom. I am trying to recover from this weekend shit-storm, but all that's happening is that I'm fixating on the train wreck that is my marriage. Piers walked in and asked … Continue reading I Flopped the Bread so the Meltdown Continues
I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
Gil just took the boys to the store to buy a filter for the vacuum cleaner. The last week has been interesting. I'm writing this quickly, so I'll do my best to summarize the main happenings, particularly the situation with Gil. I noticed a difference in him last weekend when he arrived to pick up … Continue reading I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
So I haven't blogged in over a month, and I woke up this morning with an unquenchable urge to pour my heart out to the internet. Actually, I don't think this is so much the case but rather my head is all over the place, and writing is a healthy way to center myself. Let's … Continue reading For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
Strattera Update
Day 21 and beyond: 60mg, taken in the morning -- on average, around 9am. This will be my last medication update for a while. I found it a little difficult and personally unhelpful to post every day. Plus, it was just a tough commitment to keep with everything else going on. However, I'm very interested … Continue reading Strattera Update
Day 1 — Back on Meds
After a particularly scattered few weeks, I was able to get the receptionist to squeeze me in to my doctor's office this morning at 9:00 sharp. Betty, the nurse practitioner, who I adore took one look at me and my chart, sat down and put her hand on my jumpy knee to steady it. "Your … Continue reading Day 1 — Back on Meds
Big Thing #2 – This is No Fairytale
I once knew a boy who could make everything okay. He could make me smile when the world felt too heavy. His presence provided a calmness that I couldn't explain. I was afraid that this wonderfulness was not real because it felt so other-worldly. We danced in harmony for a brief spell, and it felt … Continue reading Big Thing #2 – This is No Fairytale
Morning Madness
My boys have been in school for almost a month now, and I gotta tell you, I'm exhausted. I kept Piers in a half day Pre-K program so that he and Wallace, the three-year-old, would be on the same schedule. Honestly, it's just easier on me that way and I can not fathom getting anyone … Continue reading Morning Madness
Pocket of Pain
I feel emotionally hung over after all the writing and pondering I did yesterday, but the drunken haze is starting to lift and like some of my hard-partying college days, I'm ready for another night on the town. Talking about my struggles is hard, but once I start, I feel this relentless urge to keep … Continue reading Pocket of Pain
Grief Happens 