I'm gradually coming down from an emotionally demanding week. I could sugar-coat it. Explain my pain away and remind everyone that I KNOW things could be worse -- THEY ABSOLUTELY COULD BE WORSE. But sometimes I think people like myself spend too much time stuffing away pain, feeling like everyone else's stuff is more worthy … Continue reading Speaking Pain in Hopes of Alleviating Some
I want to like September. I want to breathe in crisp air, hinting at fall and cooler days. I want to be that woman who breaks out all things pumpkin spice as soon as Labor Day weekend is behind us. But frankly, September is a rough month in my family. My father-in-law, Kevin, died suddenly … Continue reading Making Peace With September While Hating September
I ran across a post on Facebook several days ago that I can't stop thinking about. Tim Lawrence sums up my numerous thoughts and emotions on grieving in this eloquent and thoughtful post. I could blast out THOUSANDS of words on the subject, and I could tell you all the ignorant and thoughtless cliches I … Continue reading Some Things Can’t Be Fixed, and That’s Okay
I really know how to open up a can of worms and create all sorts of uncomfortableness for myself. I haven't posted much lately because I've been a trainwreck. I wish I could put it more delicately but I like to shoot straight. Let's just call this what it is. Depression is hard and I've … Continue reading What the Heck is an Impact Statement?
I’m in a weird space since learning of the passing of our beloved Robin Williams. I'm not someone who knows the details of the latest movie or television show. I rarely watch TV and though I like a good movie, I wouldn’t consider regular outings to the movie theater one of my favorite pastimes. I’ve … Continue reading Robin Williams, You Will Be Missed
I'm flitting from one thing to the next and can't land on one thing in particular. I've been engulfed, smothered, and consumed by a grief that I didn't know was possible. i picked up the phone Saturday around noon and heard my mom's voice, but it still feels like a dream. "Kitty's dead." I want … Continue reading The Ugly
It's been a rough few days, y'all. So today we did what we do when we're not sure how to make sense of this big, beautiful, tragic life. We went to the beach. It didn't make everything okay, but I feel like I can face the world now. I'm looking forward to summer and lots … Continue reading Happy Easter!
I have little to say. I should plan to go on a vacation for the month of March. It's just all-around difficult, and it doesn't help that Gil doesn't understand. Today he told me to get over it and that I should stop feeling sorry for myself. He's probably right, but I don't want to … Continue reading March Sucks and I’m Sad
Hi friends, it's been too long. Where did the time go? I thought I'd pop in and give you a quick update. The last month has been busy with some exciting ventures on the horizon. I had no plans to stop blogging, but honestly it simply took an accidental backseat to other endeavors. I'm at … Continue reading Hello and Thank You!
Gil just took the boys to the store to buy a filter for the vacuum cleaner. The last week has been interesting. I'm writing this quickly, so I'll do my best to summarize the main happenings, particularly the situation with Gil. I noticed a difference in him last weekend when he arrived to pick up … Continue reading I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage