Yesterday I shared some of my ongoing saga with my mother. You can read the backstory here. Today is proving to be a hectic day, so I don't know if I'll have time to write a proper post. I did leave you hanging with my last post so I'll go ahead and post the email … Continue reading The Email Part 2
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Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
I'm thirty-seven years old and my crazy mother still screws with my head. Her most recent antics are affecting me in unimaginable ways and I have no idea how to shake her off of me. I need to do something because I'm slipping into the darkest depression I've experienced in years, perhaps ever. I know … Continue reading Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
So I haven't blogged in over a month, and I woke up this morning with an unquenchable urge to pour my heart out to the internet. Actually, I don't think this is so much the case but rather my head is all over the place, and writing is a healthy way to center myself. Let's … Continue reading For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
March is a Beast
So much is running through my head today. In the last month I've been on the verge of a full-blown depression. I'm clawing and fighting to stay above the surface, but it's a lot of work. March is always hard. March 24 is the anniversary of my dad's suicide. Seventeen years ago, my mom and … Continue reading March is a Beast
Therapy Dilemma
I've been struggling with a situation recently, and I'm not sure what to do. Two weeks ago, I told my therapist that I was done with therapy; I thanked her, gave her a big hug and left her office. It was somewhat impulsive, and I hadn't fully decided to break off the relationship until I … Continue reading Therapy Dilemma
I’m Alive
I woke up this morning and decided that I'm ready to blog again. I went on an unplanned sabbatical and stayed a bit longer than planned. I think bullets are in order.Marriage -- oh, where to begin. Gil and I survived the holiday chaos and made it through stronger, or so I thought. The past … Continue reading I’m Alive
I Hurt Too Much to Blog
Typically, writing is healing for me, but lately it just feels like one more thing to do. I've been surviving each week by focusing on my kids and staying busy. I just don't want to be still long enough to feel the pain. I'm a big believer in working through difficult situations, but I'm trudging … Continue reading I Hurt Too Much to Blog
I recently discovered Tiffany's delightful blog. LOVE this post. Enjoy!
Perhaps I Should Consider a Muzzle
Occasionally I run out of garbage bags. My last one will be in the kitchen can and as I clean up one mess or another, I'll toss in my trash. As soon as I open the can, I'll think to myself -- Gotta get trash bags. This one's to capacity, and there are NO more. … Continue reading Perhaps I Should Consider a Muzzle
Big Thing #1
One of my biggest fears is that our friends and family will think I ended this marriage because of little things. Part of why I want to write about this is to help me gain some clarity. I still can't decide how to best move forward. Perhaps once I see the reality in black and … Continue reading Big Thing #1
Grief Happens 