Hi friends, it's been too long. Where did the time go? I thought I'd pop in and give you a quick update. The last month has been busy with some exciting ventures on the horizon. I had no plans to stop blogging, but honestly it simply took an accidental backseat to other endeavors. I'm at … Continue reading Hello and Thank You!
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I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
Gil just took the boys to the store to buy a filter for the vacuum cleaner. The last week has been interesting. I'm writing this quickly, so I'll do my best to summarize the main happenings, particularly the situation with Gil. I noticed a difference in him last weekend when he arrived to pick up … Continue reading I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
Should I Stay or Should I Go?
Once again I'm writing about my marriage. Things with Gil are not good. It seems I always come back to this. I've tried in every way that I know how, but I get discouraged when I look at him and know he has little ownership in our problems. He's made it clear over and over … Continue reading Should I Stay or Should I Go?
I Haven’t Used Credit Cards In FIVE Years
Crazy, right? I seriously can't believe it's actually been that long. Five years ago, after lots of back and forth, messing up, promising we'll do better, yada, yada, yada, Gil and I got rid of ALL of our credit cards. I am proud of the progress we've made and our commitment to living within our … Continue reading I Haven’t Used Credit Cards In FIVE Years
Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
I'm thirty-seven years old and my crazy mother still screws with my head. Her most recent antics are affecting me in unimaginable ways and I have no idea how to shake her off of me. I need to do something because I'm slipping into the darkest depression I've experienced in years, perhaps ever. I know … Continue reading Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
I Need a Vacation
I found out on Thursday morning that my closest friend is moving. I'm beyond upset. Ani and her husband, Zip, have been our best friends for the last four years. They have two girls who are like my own children; Zip and my husband, Gil, play together in a band, and I really don't know … Continue reading I Need a Vacation
I Hurt Too Much to Blog
Typically, writing is healing for me, but lately it just feels like one more thing to do. I've been surviving each week by focusing on my kids and staying busy. I just don't want to be still long enough to feel the pain. I'm a big believer in working through difficult situations, but I'm trudging … Continue reading I Hurt Too Much to Blog
Big Thing #2 – This is No Fairytale
I once knew a boy who could make everything okay. He could make me smile when the world felt too heavy. His presence provided a calmness that I couldn't explain. I was afraid that this wonderfulness was not real because it felt so other-worldly. We danced in harmony for a brief spell, and it felt … Continue reading Big Thing #2 – This is No Fairytale
Big Thing #1
One of my biggest fears is that our friends and family will think I ended this marriage because of little things. Part of why I want to write about this is to help me gain some clarity. I still can't decide how to best move forward. Perhaps once I see the reality in black and … Continue reading Big Thing #1
I Will Get Through This
I am a believer. I believe in what many call God, but I have trouble with narrow definitions of this Higher Power. Mortals make it terribly complex, but I understand because it IS complex. I choose simplicity because I believe that what I feel to be God is greater than I or any other human … Continue reading I Will Get Through This
Grief Happens 