I have little to say. I should plan to go on a vacation for the month of March. It's just all-around difficult, and it doesn't help that Gil doesn't understand. Today he told me to get over it and that I should stop feeling sorry for myself. He's probably right, but I don't want to … Continue reading March Sucks and I’m Sad
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Hello and Thank You!
Hi friends, it's been too long. Where did the time go? I thought I'd pop in and give you a quick update. The last month has been busy with some exciting ventures on the horizon. I had no plans to stop blogging, but honestly it simply took an accidental backseat to other endeavors. I'm at … Continue reading Hello and Thank You!
I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
Gil just took the boys to the store to buy a filter for the vacuum cleaner. The last week has been interesting. I'm writing this quickly, so I'll do my best to summarize the main happenings, particularly the situation with Gil. I noticed a difference in him last weekend when he arrived to pick up … Continue reading I Never Cease to be Amazed in this Marriage
On Authenticity
Today I logged onto Facebook for the first time in a couple of weeks. I have to do this for my sanity. I do communicate through personal messaging, but I limit my interactions on the newsfeed. I had what felt like a million notifications. Since my last login, I've had a birthday, AND Gil and … Continue reading On Authenticity
The Email Part 2
Yesterday I shared some of my ongoing saga with my mother. You can read the backstory here. Today is proving to be a hectic day, so I don't know if I'll have time to write a proper post. I did leave you hanging with my last post so I'll go ahead and post the email … Continue reading The Email Part 2
I’m Alive
I woke up this morning and decided that I'm ready to blog again. I went on an unplanned sabbatical and stayed a bit longer than planned. I think bullets are in order.Marriage -- oh, where to begin. Gil and I survived the holiday chaos and made it through stronger, or so I thought. The past … Continue reading I’m Alive
Tell Me This Will Get Easier
I'm having a bit of a meltdown this morning. The reality is hitting me that I must file for a divorce and go through with it, but I'm so very afraid. I want to believe that I am strong enough to get through this, but I have so many doubts. In a perfect world, we … Continue reading Tell Me This Will Get Easier
Highlights From Hell — I mean, Home
So much to post, so little focus. Bear with me. I've spent most of the week at Mamala's. I'll try to sum it up briefly. The following quote pretty much says all I can say at the moment about the trip and my relationship with my mom: "Honey, you really must look at the bright … Continue reading Highlights From Hell — I mean, Home
Prepare for the Crash
My therapist once told me that it would be a good idea to plan ahead for emotional tough times. This discussion was a long time ago, so I won't pretend to remember all the details, but I've put this somewhat odd concept into practice -- at least in certain areas. For example, I think I've … Continue reading Prepare for the Crash
Big Thing #1
One of my biggest fears is that our friends and family will think I ended this marriage because of little things. Part of why I want to write about this is to help me gain some clarity. I still can't decide how to best move forward. Perhaps once I see the reality in black and … Continue reading Big Thing #1
Grief Happens 