Once again I'm writing about my marriage. Things with Gil are not good. It seems I always come back to this. I've tried in every way that I know how, but I get discouraged when I look at him and know he has little ownership in our problems. He's made it clear over and over … Continue reading Should I Stay or Should I Go?
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Summer Update
Summer has been busy! I've been doing better living in the moment than recording it, which seems to be a bit of a problem for me as a writer. I'm also adjusting to being with my children ALL day. I didn't think I had much time when they were in preschool for three hours, but … Continue reading Summer Update
The Email Part 2
Yesterday I shared some of my ongoing saga with my mother. You can read the backstory here. Today is proving to be a hectic day, so I don't know if I'll have time to write a proper post. I did leave you hanging with my last post so I'll go ahead and post the email … Continue reading The Email Part 2
Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
I'm thirty-seven years old and my crazy mother still screws with my head. Her most recent antics are affecting me in unimaginable ways and I have no idea how to shake her off of me. I need to do something because I'm slipping into the darkest depression I've experienced in years, perhaps ever. I know … Continue reading Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
So I haven't blogged in over a month, and I woke up this morning with an unquenchable urge to pour my heart out to the internet. Actually, I don't think this is so much the case but rather my head is all over the place, and writing is a healthy way to center myself. Let's … Continue reading For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
I Need a Vacation
I found out on Thursday morning that my closest friend is moving. I'm beyond upset. Ani and her husband, Zip, have been our best friends for the last four years. They have two girls who are like my own children; Zip and my husband, Gil, play together in a band, and I really don't know … Continue reading I Need a Vacation
March is a Beast
So much is running through my head today. In the last month I've been on the verge of a full-blown depression. I'm clawing and fighting to stay above the surface, but it's a lot of work. March is always hard. March 24 is the anniversary of my dad's suicide. Seventeen years ago, my mom and … Continue reading March is a Beast
I Hurt Too Much to Blog
Typically, writing is healing for me, but lately it just feels like one more thing to do. I've been surviving each week by focusing on my kids and staying busy. I just don't want to be still long enough to feel the pain. I'm a big believer in working through difficult situations, but I'm trudging … Continue reading I Hurt Too Much to Blog
I’m Allergic
This is a conversation I had with Wallace, my three-year-old, as we were driving to school yesterday. We had to be there early so I could rush to my doctor's appointment at 8:45, so the boys were eating their breakfast in route. Me: "Wallace, did you finish your sandwich already?" Wallace: "No, I gave to … Continue reading I’m Allergic
Day 4 & 5 Medication Update
So, I missed a day. Last night we had some friends over and got into a bottle of amazing red wine. I think I had one glass on an empty stomach and fell asleep on the couch. Big sigh.... Day 3 & 4 -- Strattera Update: Took 20mg in the morning yesterday and today. Yesterday, … Continue reading Day 4 & 5 Medication Update
Grief Happens 