The visit from the organizer has done a number on my psyche. It's jacked with my zen. Put a damper on my chi. It's been a week, and she left me with what one might call a manageable list. Except it feels like anything but that... I hate lists. Hate them. They don't give me … Continue reading Out With the Old
Depression
Still Clearing Clutter, Kid Updates, and Other Ponderings
The holidays have a way of making me turn inward. I find everything about them overstimulating and just...too much. When I look back, I realize they've always had this effect on me, but since becoming a parent, the overstimulating factor is amplified. While some people surge into high gear, I become slower and more methodic. … Continue reading Still Clearing Clutter, Kid Updates, and Other Ponderings
What’s Going Well Wednesday
What's going well for you today?
The Ugly
I'm flitting from one thing to the next and can't land on one thing in particular. I've been engulfed, smothered, and consumed by a grief that I didn't know was possible. i picked up the phone Saturday around noon and heard my mom's voice, but it still feels like a dream. "Kitty's dead." I want … Continue reading The Ugly
How to Get Out of a Funk — A Few Tips from a Serious Attempter
1 — Send the husband and children off to school and work. This is crucial. I can not stress enough the importance of not having to attend to little people and/or big ones. They must go. 2 — Eat something for breakfast. Put something in your system. This morning I had a Clifbar, an apple … Continue reading How to Get Out of a Funk — A Few Tips from a Serious Attempter
Running; Anxiety Update; Neck, Shoulders, and Back Issues
So, quickly.......I got some super-nice comments, emails, etc., from people sharing their stories of depression and anxiety, and I just have to say that hearing from you guys restores my faith in humanity. Thank you!I have not managed to get to the doctor, yet. I called to make an appointment and learned that my favorite … Continue reading Running; Anxiety Update; Neck, Shoulders, and Back Issues
Back to Life; Back to Reality
The kids and I got in Sunday from a TEN day vacation. It was all kinds of fabulous.We began last weekend camping with Gil and six other couples in the mountains. Then the boys and I stayed with our friends, Ani, Zip, and their girls for the week. They welcomed us into their home that … Continue reading Back to Life; Back to Reality
Granny Always Had the Best Drugs
I miss my grandmother. Today I miss her little silver box. Sad but true. My own grandmother occasionally medicated anyone in the family who dared get a little "worked-up."She always kept what I now know as Xanax in a small metal container in her purse. No one ever would have guessed that the red-headed preacher's … Continue reading Granny Always Had the Best Drugs
Should I Stay or Should I Go?
Once again I'm writing about my marriage. Things with Gil are not good. It seems I always come back to this. I've tried in every way that I know how, but I get discouraged when I look at him and know he has little ownership in our problems. He's made it clear over and over … Continue reading Should I Stay or Should I Go?
The Email Part 2
Yesterday I shared some of my ongoing saga with my mother. You can read the backstory here. Today is proving to be a hectic day, so I don't know if I'll have time to write a proper post. I did leave you hanging with my last post so I'll go ahead and post the email … Continue reading The Email Part 2
Grief Happens 