The kids and I got in Sunday from a TEN day vacation. It was all kinds of fabulous.
We began last weekend camping with Gil and six other couples in the mountains. Then the boys and I stayed with our friends, Ani, Zip, and their girls for the week. They welcomed us into their home that they literally JUST moved in to.
In my last post I discussed my latest struggles with anxiety. Strangely, I had NONE whatsoever while I was away. Though, there was a good bit of wine consumed.
The trip included LOTS of hiking. Sometimes I underestimate my need for physical activity. I did throw my knee out dancing my ass off to Proud Mary at a gathering that Ani’s mom insisted we attend. I’m not sure those people knew what to make of our crew, but I had more fun than I’ve had in ages.
I haven’t really discussed my need for order on this blog, but I am borderline OCD when it comes to wanting my house clean and organized. Interestingly enough, Zip and Ani’s house was utter chaos. They just moved in. The house is a rental and super-old, so it has that musty, lived-in scent. They have two big dogs who just plain stink, especially with all the rainy weather.
It DID NOT bother me. Why is that?
I think I just need lots of adult interaction. Ani and I had a blast together. Perhaps I should live in a commune. She and I both laughed at how much more manageable it was to prepare food together. The four kids entertained themselves while she and I unpacked, cooked, cleaned, and just enjoyed each other’s company.
I chopped off my hair — something I’ve been wanting to do for a while, and I love it. I haven’t had super-short hair since Piers was born nearly six years ago.
On the drive up, Gil and I discussed me going back to work. Apparently, he’s convinced all our marriage problems stem from my unhappiness as a stay-home mom. I do believe there is SOME truth to this, but I think it’s naive on his part to attribute everything to my non-domesticity.
I’m not even focusing on our marriage right now. I am considering returning to work. I’m updating my resume and crossing my fingers that Wallace gets in to the Pre-K program where he’s on the waiting list.
Overall, vacation recharged me. Since I’ve returned has everything been wonderful?
As usual, my house is making me batty, and I want nothing more than to walk out the door. It’s raining cats and dogs where I live, and I seriously need some sunshine.
My four year-old shoved mini Mardi Gras beads in his ear today, so we had to hoof it to the ER. Fun times, I tell ya. I need some sunshine tomorrow.
I still haven’t gone to the doctor for anxiety meds. For the moment, I’m good.
More to come…..