I want to like September. I want to breathe in crisp air, hinting at fall and cooler days. I want to be that woman who breaks out all things pumpkin spice as soon as Labor Day weekend is behind us. But frankly, September is a rough month in my family. My father-in-law, Kevin, died suddenly … Continue reading Making Peace With September While Hating September
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Titles Fail Me When Tragedy Strikes.
I'm trying to stay afloat this summer, keep up with my kids and their activities, my writing projects, and more, all while attempting to retain a shred of sanity in the process -- both literally and figuratively. BUT...I wanted to quickly pop in to say hello. Meditation is going. Thanks to all of you who … Continue reading Titles Fail Me When Tragedy Strikes.
Some Things Can’t Be Fixed, and That’s Okay
I ran across a post on Facebook several days ago that I can't stop thinking about. Tim Lawrence sums up my numerous thoughts and emotions on grieving in this eloquent and thoughtful post. I could blast out THOUSANDS of words on the subject, and I could tell you all the ignorant and thoughtless cliches I … Continue reading Some Things Can’t Be Fixed, and That’s Okay
What the Heck is an Impact Statement?
I really know how to open up a can of worms and create all sorts of uncomfortableness for myself. I haven't posted much lately because I've been a trainwreck. I wish I could put it more delicately but I like to shoot straight. Let's just call this what it is. Depression is hard and I've … Continue reading What the Heck is an Impact Statement?
Robin Williams, You Will Be Missed
I’m in a weird space since learning of the passing of our beloved Robin Williams. I'm not someone who knows the details of the latest movie or television show. I rarely watch TV and though I like a good movie, I wouldn’t consider regular outings to the movie theater one of my favorite pastimes. I’ve … Continue reading Robin Williams, You Will Be Missed
The Ugly
I'm flitting from one thing to the next and can't land on one thing in particular. I've been engulfed, smothered, and consumed by a grief that I didn't know was possible. i picked up the phone Saturday around noon and heard my mom's voice, but it still feels like a dream. "Kitty's dead." I want … Continue reading The Ugly
Happy Easter!
It's been a rough few days, y'all. So today we did what we do when we're not sure how to make sense of this big, beautiful, tragic life. We went to the beach. It didn't make everything okay, but I feel like I can face the world now. I'm looking forward to summer and lots … Continue reading Happy Easter!
March Sucks and I’m Sad
I have little to say. I should plan to go on a vacation for the month of March. It's just all-around difficult, and it doesn't help that Gil doesn't understand. Today he told me to get over it and that I should stop feeling sorry for myself. He's probably right, but I don't want to … Continue reading March Sucks and I’m Sad
How Do You Define Success?
Sometimes I struggle with feeling unaccomplished. I don’t like to admit that, so I decided to put it out here on my anonymous blog. These feelings have invaded my psyche since having children, and they’ve made me examine my attitude towards success, more specifically, how I define it. My children are now five and four … Continue reading How Do You Define Success?
Should I Stay or Should I Go?
Once again I'm writing about my marriage. Things with Gil are not good. It seems I always come back to this. I've tried in every way that I know how, but I get discouraged when I look at him and know he has little ownership in our problems. He's made it clear over and over … Continue reading Should I Stay or Should I Go?
