So, quickly.......I got some super-nice comments, emails, etc., from people sharing their stories of depression and anxiety, and I just have to say that hearing from you guys restores my faith in humanity. Thank you!I have not managed to get to the doctor, yet. I called to make an appointment and learned that my favorite … Continue reading Running; Anxiety Update; Neck, Shoulders, and Back Issues
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How Can I Tame this Anxiety?
I have to get my anxiety under control. I'm just not sure how to do this. After years of seeing therapists and psychiatrists, I have no confidence whatsoever in any "expert's" ability to adequately treat this condition.Am I so far in the weeds right now that I can't think straight and make a decision on … Continue reading How Can I Tame this Anxiety?
Granny Always Had the Best Drugs
I miss my grandmother. Today I miss her little silver box. Sad but true. My own grandmother occasionally medicated anyone in the family who dared get a little "worked-up."She always kept what I now know as Xanax in a small metal container in her purse. No one ever would have guessed that the red-headed preacher's … Continue reading Granny Always Had the Best Drugs
The Email Part 2
Yesterday I shared some of my ongoing saga with my mother. You can read the backstory here. Today is proving to be a hectic day, so I don't know if I'll have time to write a proper post. I did leave you hanging with my last post so I'll go ahead and post the email … Continue reading The Email Part 2
Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
I'm thirty-seven years old and my crazy mother still screws with my head. Her most recent antics are affecting me in unimaginable ways and I have no idea how to shake her off of me. I need to do something because I'm slipping into the darkest depression I've experienced in years, perhaps ever. I know … Continue reading Why Do I Let Her Get to Me? Part 1
For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
So I haven't blogged in over a month, and I woke up this morning with an unquenchable urge to pour my heart out to the internet. Actually, I don't think this is so much the case but rather my head is all over the place, and writing is a healthy way to center myself. Let's … Continue reading For the Love! Why Can’t I Just Eat?
I Need a Vacation
I found out on Thursday morning that my closest friend is moving. I'm beyond upset. Ani and her husband, Zip, have been our best friends for the last four years. They have two girls who are like my own children; Zip and my husband, Gil, play together in a band, and I really don't know … Continue reading I Need a Vacation
Day 2 — Back on Meds — Strattera
Day 2 -- Strattera 9:00am: 25mg Strattera, 1 energy drink I decided to wait a bit on the Adderall. I was tired and a little groggy yesterday, but my anxiety is already better. Most likely I'm experiencing a sort of placebo effect more than anything else, but I'll take it. Gil's out of town this … Continue reading Day 2 — Back on Meds — Strattera
Perhaps I Should Consider a Muzzle
Occasionally I run out of garbage bags. My last one will be in the kitchen can and as I clean up one mess or another, I'll toss in my trash. As soon as I open the can, I'll think to myself -- Gotta get trash bags. This one's to capacity, and there are NO more. … Continue reading Perhaps I Should Consider a Muzzle
Morning Madness
My boys have been in school for almost a month now, and I gotta tell you, I'm exhausted. I kept Piers in a half day Pre-K program so that he and Wallace, the three-year-old, would be on the same schedule. Honestly, it's just easier on me that way and I can not fathom getting anyone … Continue reading Morning Madness
Grief Happens 