I am a believer. I believe in what many call God, but I have trouble with narrow definitions of this Higher Power. Mortals make it terribly complex, but I understand because it IS complex. I choose simplicity because I believe that what I feel to be God is greater than I or any other human … Continue reading I Will Get Through This
Tough Topics
I've gone back and forth in my head trying to decide if I should actually dive into this topic on a blog. I'm finally at a point where I feel strongly that I must. It's raw and painful, and there is so much that's in the gray. I've ruminated to the point that I'm not … Continue reading Tough Topics
Here Comes Crazy
Mamala called yesterday and announced that she'll be arriving around lunchtime today. She also informed me that she will be staying in a hotel. Okay then. That's my mother for you, a big bag of nuttiness packaged neatly -- Southern, blond, appropriate, and Republican. Bless her heart! And mine as well. In preparation for her … Continue reading Here Comes Crazy
I Need Meds Again
I went to see my amazing therapist today. The following conversation pretty much says it all. Her: What's going on with your medication these days? Me: I haven't been on any all summer, and overall I think I'm doing well. Her: Yes, I agree you seem to be doing well. I only ask because, well, … Continue reading I Need Meds Again
Hard Questions
"Mom, is Grandmother gonna die?" I never cease to be amazed at the depth of my four-year-old. Geez, Kiddo. I'm furious with my mom. She knew I was reluctant to take my kids to visit my grandmother in the nursing home, but I caved under her relentless pressure. I was prepared to have this conversation, … Continue reading Hard Questions
One Fine Father
Father's Day makes me a little nutty. Of course I never anticipate this annual reaction. It comes on fast and furious, and it's always difficult,but for the sake of my mental health I want to focus on the positive. Here goes... Today I'm so very grateful for Gil, father of my children and husband extraordinaire. … Continue reading One Fine Father
Bedtime is NOT for Wimps
For the first time since becoming a parent nearly five years ago, I'm making a radical decision about bedtime rituals with my children. I AM DONE. It hit me like a life-sized boulder as I was once again DREADING our nighttime routine while cleaning up the kitchen after dinner. Th emotions came hard and fast … Continue reading Bedtime is NOT for Wimps
I Have No Idea How to Operate a Blog
Okay, now frustration is setting in. I'm writing from my IPad, and the battery died in the middle of a post, so I think it was deleted. I believe it will come back, but I have no way to be sure, so I'll attempt to give you the highlights. 1 - I've been a writer … Continue reading I Have No Idea How to Operate a Blog
Stuff I Screw Up
Gil: Did you soak my meat thermometer? Me: Yes Gil: Seriously? My meat thermometer has been sitting in dishwater overnight? Are you freaking kidding me? Me: Yes, and no I'm not joking. I'm sorry. Add it to the list of my weekly fuck-ups. Are you done? He slams the door. This is how my entire … Continue reading Stuff I Screw Up
Grief Happens 