Strattera Update - Days 11-17 60mgs -- I've been taking it in the morning. I tried a few days taking it at night hoping I'd sleep better, but it didn't seem to make a difference, so I'm back to taking it in the morning. Do I feel better? Good question. I can't say there's really … Continue reading Strattera Update – Days 11-17
Tell Me This Will Get Easier
I'm having a bit of a meltdown this morning. The reality is hitting me that I must file for a divorce and go through with it, but I'm so very afraid. I want to believe that I am strong enough to get through this, but I have so many doubts. In a perfect world, we … Continue reading Tell Me This Will Get Easier
Strattera Update — Days 7-10
Day 7-10: Strattera I've been on 40mg all week, and I feel like shit. Is it the medication? I honestly have no idea, but I suspect that it's circumstantial. I'm on week five of Gil traveling. I don't miss him, but I do miss having another adult who parents our children -- not that he's … Continue reading Strattera Update — Days 7-10
Day 6 — Strattera Update
Day 6: 40mg Strattera around 11am After finishing the five days of the 20mg sample packet, I moved on to the 40mg. I'm not feeling great -- foggy and drugged. About thirty minutes after taking it, my entire family was annoying me beyond description. This might be a coincidence, but I'm afraid this med might … Continue reading Day 6 — Strattera Update
Day 4 & 5 Medication Update
So, I missed a day. Last night we had some friends over and got into a bottle of amazing red wine. I think I had one glass on an empty stomach and fell asleep on the couch. Big sigh.... Day 3 & 4 -- Strattera Update: Took 20mg in the morning yesterday and today. Yesterday, … Continue reading Day 4 & 5 Medication Update
Day 3 — Strattera Update
Day 3 -- Strattera 9:30: 25mg Strattera, Energy Shot Well, I wrote a somewhat lengthy post this morning and managed to delete the whole damn thing. Obviously, the meds are not working their magic quite yet. Overall, I feel good -- less nausea today, and best of all I slept well and woke up at … Continue reading Day 3 — Strattera Update
Day 2 — Back on Meds — Strattera
Day 2 -- Strattera 9:00am: 25mg Strattera, 1 energy drink I decided to wait a bit on the Adderall. I was tired and a little groggy yesterday, but my anxiety is already better. Most likely I'm experiencing a sort of placebo effect more than anything else, but I'll take it. Gil's out of town this … Continue reading Day 2 — Back on Meds — Strattera
Day 1 — Back on Meds
After a particularly scattered few weeks, I was able to get the receptionist to squeeze me in to my doctor's office this morning at 9:00 sharp. Betty, the nurse practitioner, who I adore took one look at me and my chart, sat down and put her hand on my jumpy knee to steady it. "Your … Continue reading Day 1 — Back on Meds
Highlights From Hell — I mean, Home
So much to post, so little focus. Bear with me. I've spent most of the week at Mamala's. I'll try to sum it up briefly. The following quote pretty much says all I can say at the moment about the trip and my relationship with my mom: "Honey, you really must look at the bright … Continue reading Highlights From Hell — I mean, Home
Prepare for the Crash
My therapist once told me that it would be a good idea to plan ahead for emotional tough times. This discussion was a long time ago, so I won't pretend to remember all the details, but I've put this somewhat odd concept into practice -- at least in certain areas. For example, I think I've … Continue reading Prepare for the Crash
Grief Happens 