I need for life to get back to normal. I'm ready for my sweet children to go back to school. They've been out since the 18th. As I'm typing this and trying to work on some other projects, Wallace, my four-year-old is tying up my rain boot with the cord to the blinds in my … Continue reading ‘Tis the Season to Get My House Together
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Running; Anxiety Update; Neck, Shoulders, and Back Issues
So, quickly.......I got some super-nice comments, emails, etc., from people sharing their stories of depression and anxiety, and I just have to say that hearing from you guys restores my faith in humanity. Thank you!I have not managed to get to the doctor, yet. I called to make an appointment and learned that my favorite … Continue reading Running; Anxiety Update; Neck, Shoulders, and Back Issues
Granny Always Had the Best Drugs
I miss my grandmother. Today I miss her little silver box. Sad but true. My own grandmother occasionally medicated anyone in the family who dared get a little "worked-up."She always kept what I now know as Xanax in a small metal container in her purse. No one ever would have guessed that the red-headed preacher's … Continue reading Granny Always Had the Best Drugs
Strattera Update
Day 21 and beyond: 60mg, taken in the morning -- on average, around 9am. This will be my last medication update for a while. I found it a little difficult and personally unhelpful to post every day. Plus, it was just a tough commitment to keep with everything else going on. However, I'm very interested … Continue reading Strattera Update
Strattera Update — Days 7-10
Day 7-10: Strattera I've been on 40mg all week, and I feel like shit. Is it the medication? I honestly have no idea, but I suspect that it's circumstantial. I'm on week five of Gil traveling. I don't miss him, but I do miss having another adult who parents our children -- not that he's … Continue reading Strattera Update — Days 7-10
Day 2 — Back on Meds — Strattera
Day 2 -- Strattera 9:00am: 25mg Strattera, 1 energy drink I decided to wait a bit on the Adderall. I was tired and a little groggy yesterday, but my anxiety is already better. Most likely I'm experiencing a sort of placebo effect more than anything else, but I'll take it. Gil's out of town this … Continue reading Day 2 — Back on Meds — Strattera
Day 1 — Back on Meds
After a particularly scattered few weeks, I was able to get the receptionist to squeeze me in to my doctor's office this morning at 9:00 sharp. Betty, the nurse practitioner, who I adore took one look at me and my chart, sat down and put her hand on my jumpy knee to steady it. "Your … Continue reading Day 1 — Back on Meds
No Simple Solution
I have so many thoughts floating around in my head these days, and I don't have a clue where to begin. So again, here's some randomness. Several years ago when I was finishing my undergrad degree, I only had two classes left to complete my Women's and Gender Studies emphasis. The problem was that I … Continue reading No Simple Solution
I Need Meds Again
I went to see my amazing therapist today. The following conversation pretty much says it all. Her: What's going on with your medication these days? Me: I haven't been on any all summer, and overall I think I'm doing well. Her: Yes, I agree you seem to be doing well. I only ask because, well, … Continue reading I Need Meds Again
Grief Happens 